Title for the post is a quote from the movie Elizabethtown. Just in case you're wondering.
Sometimes, little things happen around me that i envy. Things I'm not able to do yet or can't experience yet.It makes me bitter, sad, jealous. Three attributes that I never aspire to have.
I'm sometimes feel like I am not entirely satisfied in my current position. I thought I would be more financially stable, more independent, etc by the time I hit this age. But certain choices in school and career have brought me to the place I am now:
I choose to stay in school and get a second degree that I felt was essential.
I chose to work on my photography career instead of following a more "stable" path. While photography is growing and I can justify getting a studio soon (another feat all it's own!), it still doesn't make enough money to feel like it can be my only occupation.
I know I'm not the only person who feels that they are in a situation like this.
On the flip side, I know I shouldn't feel that way.
I should feel fortunate that I have a roof to sleep under, an INCREDIBLE family and parents who are supporting my decision to photograph people for a living, an incredible boyfriend who is helping me get my business off the ground running, and great friends.
I have an awesome job that I love, and a part time job substitute teaching that I am growing to love more and more with each assignment. How many people can say they love what they do? I can!
I know that I should never feel envy for someone else getting to do something I can't do. I should feel happy, excited, proud. And I do feel all those things.
But there is still that little dark spot that makes me want what they have.
And I just need to remind myself that I don't always have to do what others are doing.
I can't focus on what I don't have...
...I need to focus on me; on what it will take to get where I want to be. :)